The Art of Not Giving a Fuck

We live in dangerous and incendiary times and one of the most incendiary & dangerous things anyone can do nowadays is to quote the O.G. Bunk Moreland give a fuck when it's not your turn to give a fuck. When that happens trust me all kinds of calamity ensues warranted and unwarranted, deserved and undeserved. So your best bet is to learn how to not give a single solitary ranch & cheese(yep you read that right google it) everlasting non-denominational fuck. I'm here to help you on your way to a worry free life on not having any fucks to give.
So here we are you're just staring at me waiting for me to explain my position, and I'm just staring back not a fuck in the world to give. Just like that your first lesson has been taught grasshopper. Boom and your mind is blown...your welcome. It's important for me to explain why giving a fuck is so dangerous,why one simple act of caring can have a life altering, destruction level event to you. So let me explain this simple answer to a complicated question the most vulnerable part of any human being is their heart or better yet their feelings. Once they're damaged there is really no coming back from that loss for most people. The U.S. military spends hundreds of million dollars trying to teach our solders to simply not give a fuck and yet we have even more soldiers coming home broken from the shit they've seen at war. The reason for that is they care about their fellow brothers at arms, the civilians,and the children they've seen dead. It's like having a giant tub of fucks to give and just being submerged in it for 6 months at a time, it's soul crushing. The most common example that we all can relate to is loving someone who either doesn't love you like you love them, or they just don't understand what really goes into being in love with someone and they just quit when it gets hard. Which is the truest test of love(if you stay when it gets difficult and survive). We all know that sickening feeling when your pissed for 12 hours then sad depressed and confused for the other 12. That shit sucks B is the most scientific way it can be described or explained. Don't fret I got you I'm gonna teach u how to empty your pockets of all fucks to give

First and foremost STOP GIVING A FUCK ABOUT DUMB SHIT!!!! If I hear another delusional asshole say how they feel bad for Kim Kardashian, fucking George Zimmerman or any other rich cheese dick douche nozzle that doesn't deserve our sympathy I swear on all things holy I'm gonna go ape shit and snap necks old school Greek God style. Honestly people why the fuck do you care that Kim Kardashian is no longer married SHE MADE 18 MILLION DOLLARS OFF OF HER WEDDING!!!! Do you not understand that she got married and it cost her nothing she profited 18 millie off of her wedding. To all my married people out there how much did you make off of your wedding, which I'm banking wasn't nearly as lavish as hers, go ahead crunch the numbers I'll wait........done? all set?? did you add it up?? What did you get?? Oh shit balls!! you didn't make a single solitary fucking dollar, it actually put you in debt to get married well go fucking figure. And yet you specially educated people feel bad because she got divorced from some douche bag she was only married to for 4 to 6 months, who really knows how long they were actually married. I'll tell you what though, nobody should give a fuck. She made bank off of her "tragic love life", shit if someone would pay me 18 mil for a difficult time I'd be having shitty days all the time, shit who am I kidding I have shitty days for free all the time.

O.K. O.K. I know you may feel like I'm being harsh, and if you feel really bad about it you should write it down very neatly and succinctly put it in a very nice somewhat expensive envelope seal it, wrap it around a HUUUGGEE frozen dildo and shove it up your ass, because as you may have already guessed I DO NOT GIVE A FUCK and there you go that's your second lesson. When you care about those little silly things that actually have no affect whatsoever on your life it weakens you, for when you have to deal with the things that actually matter and can cause true damage to you. So when Kim Kardashian gets divorced from Kanye just say fuck her, and seriously fuck that guy too they're rich they'll be fine. Or when you somehow think George Zimmerman is being mistreated just remember HE FUCKING KILLED A 17 YEAR 140 LB UNARMED KID after he called him a "coon" on a 911 call.

Actually if you care about how George Zimmerman is being treated just fucking kill yourself. You are useless to society and a burden on all of us so just go jump out in the middle of a freeway filled with tractor trailers going 80 mph, or bite down on a bullet filled with cyanide and gun powder (do they make those? if not we'll get one specially made for you). While we're on this subject let me just say I've seen some of the most retarded and weak minded responses from people of color on this thanks to twitter (seriously fuck you twitter for that, you suck major dick and I mean that with all sincerity). I really just want you all to shut the fuck up about it, most of you are idiots thanks -Management.

Alright my bad had to get that rant out. Moving right along honestly the best way to not give a fuck is to care for about 10 minutes, I mean care a lot, ball your frickin' eyes out throw a huge 7 yr. old temper tantrum like when your mom or dad wouldn't let you go to the fair or amusment park with your friends simply because they were being dicks and just wanted to say no(oh that was just me? welp..you get my point) get it all out. You'll feel so much better trust me, then simply forget about it. Think about the other issues you have the other things you need to worry about like your rent, going to work, being a good parent, friend or even just watching your favorite show. Don't dwell on the bullshit like some asshole who won't call you back, or some fuck face who was rude to you on the phone or at the grocery store. Then when it comes time to actually give a fuck about something that really matters you'll be equipped to deal with it, you'll have the energy and strength to deal with this issues that really matter in your life. Understand? Any questions? Complaints? LOL I'm kidding you know what you can do with all questions and complaints make sure you fuck yourself carefully and vigorously with them squarely up your loose asshole repeatedly, cause I really don't give an everlasting fuck, and with that your last lesson has been taught. Once again your amazed I know, taught without even knowing you've been taught.......your welcome <<<click on that, and shame on you if you actually googled ranch & cheese I am laughing at you in the most disrespectful manner.

God enjoys a good nut shot

Everybody, I believe has had that day or week or even year, where you think "shit, what else can go wrong". Those times fucking suck, no matter the magnitude of what the issues that are happening whether it be a hard work week, family issues, money problems or just silly ass relationship issues. They stress you out they dominate your thoughts, they distract you and they even cause actual physical illness and pains. Also the issues always beg the question "why the fuck is this happening to me", well I have a theory and I don't think many of you will like it but if you know me, you know I wouldn't be myself if I didn't say what I felt so fuck it here it goes. God likes kicking people in the nuts, he really enjoys giving unsuspecting nuts a fantastic crotch shot.

I know, I know, most of you have this benevolent all knowing, all loving theory about God but I, well let's just say I disagree. How can I say that? where is my evidence? Oh..well thank you for asking and please let me explain. My first and simplest answer is are you fucking paying attention to the shitty ass world we live in? How many people do you know who are struggling to survive? I would imagine you know a few, I definitely do, myself included. Life is hard for a lot of good people and easy and fun for a lot of huge smelly cock faces (George Bush, Paris Hilton I could go on & on). You may say well that's not God's fault he gives us free will. Ah well that solves it he gave us free will that just proves that every bad shitty thing that happens in your life is all your fault, wait though let's think about that for a second.

Free will is at it's best contingent on a few things, at its worst just an illusion that makes everyone feel better. Free will is limited to you either being alone or stronger, smarter or faster than the obstacle that can possibly prevent you from doing what you want to do. My analogy is simple I want to be a millionaire but free will by itself will not allow me to do that. I either have to have a skill set to gain that monetary success or be lucky enough to have a parent to pass that money on to me I can't just decide hey I want a million dollars I'm gonna go into my bank account and change my account balance to 1 million. I know it's an over simplified example but my point is I may have the free will to pursue that money but I do not have the free will to just get it, and that is the limitation of free will. You may say well that's not free will but well then your just playing with the definitions and manipulating the words to make it benefit your argument. Free will is only free when your directly dealing with yourself, so if you want to be gay or dance the Macarena all day then hey do it until you pass out. The second you add another human being into that equation your percentages of doing what you want drops dramatically. Then by the truest form of the definition your will isn't quite as free.

So the free will debate will go on and on but we all know deep down unless your some kind of billionaire or a genius evil sociopath you don't really have free will.  Another argument against God and his love for nut shots is that He doesn't actually cause these bad things to happen to us. It was because of Adam and Eve or better known as just plain and simple human nature. BINGO!!! wait no not bingo, if it is plain old human nature to cause harm or sadness to each other where exactly did our human nature come from? Don't you believe in this all powerful, all knowing, all loving, all controlling creator? Well if he did create us, wouldn't it mean that by the same reasoning that he created our negative parts of humanity? And don't give me that devil shit 'cuz that just contradicts all kinds of things about God. Mainly his all powerfulness and benevolence, if there was an actual real life douche bag devil going around fucking shit up for his favorite creations God would have two options, A.) destroy the annoyance or B.) alter the devils way of thinking instead of tolerating his douche baggery. If there was a devil and he is allowed to mess things up it really just proves my point even more that God thoroughly enjoys the nut shot and he likes watching the devil wreak havoc.

See when you believe in a one God it all comes back to him or her, there is no yin and yang no counter balance or opposites attracting. There is just the one source and everything comes from that source. The concept of the devil or free will doesn't really jive with the thought of One all knowing, powerful, loving God. See in order for the devil to survive he would either have to be just as powerful or allowed to survive, and there are too many people with too many negative selfish intentions for free will to be absolute. This is where my thoughts on this actually come from. God likes it this way. Maybe he's rooting for us to do well maybe he wants to see us overcome and he enjoys watching us, but he's definitely not to put out when we don't. I believe if there is a God his biggest response is " aww you almost made enough money to not have your house foreclosed on, tsk tsk too bad, well now you got to live on the street, how you gonna get out of that?"

Sure it would seem that my thoughts dark and a lot less hopeful than yours, it also makes me more of a believer in myself and the strength of myself. I believe people have the power to overcome on their own, without having to beg God for assistance. As soon as you get out the belief that this is in his plan and that somehow it'll be ok, you don't have to fight back, because your a good person and your going to heaven it will be perfect then, our society will be greatly improved. Fuck that I'm not waiting for heaven I'm here now on this earth and I want a good life here I want to enjoy this time here. Honestly it's all I know I've never been to heaven nor have I ever met someone who has. So I'll put my faith in my ability to appreciate this life I was given and this heavenly place that has so much possibility and beauty in it. If that happens then maybe we'll stop allowing people like George Bush, Ronald Reagan, Sarah Palin, and Rush Limbaugh from manipulating us into believing that their supposed to be millionaires and we're not because of other poor people holding us down. So to all my God believers out there stop accepting those nut shots as the way it's supposed to be, understand that God is not picking favorites he probably doesn't care either way, he's just enjoying the show.

If there even is a God, we're more like ants in an ant farm than his children that he/she loves. I don't know about you but most parents I know go overboard with protecting their children from calamity. They will do any and everything to make sure their children are happy and enjoying life. That's why we have so many celebutantes nowadays and we've had all through out history these dynastic families who only pass their wealth on to their children. If god was our "father/mother" He would've made this world a certified Utopia and we all would be happy and enjoying our lives, because most parents just can't resist spoiling and believing they've provided the best they could for their kids, and you mean to tell me the all powerful God who thinks of us as his children wouldn't use his powers to make things perfect for us?!?!?!? Only once we lived our life perfectly then we can reach this perfect land in the sky?

Why even bother making it that way unless he enjoys watching the perfectly timed nut shot right when you don't need it. So either we need to re-assess how we perceive god (like maybe he doesn't care like you think), or and you may want to sit down for this, but maybe just maybe it's just us here and what happens in your life is solely based off of you and your fellow man (ok, ok settle down Christians I know your going insane in front of your laptops right now spitting & frothing at the mouth calling me all kinds of blasphemous names). It's really just a thought that maybe there is no big puppet master in the sky and we need to strap on our cups, nut up and make this place better for all of us, and stop being stupid allowing fat fucks like Limbaugh and the Koch brothers from manipulating us by playing on our silly ass antiquated fears. Seriously it's time to grow up America.

Hip Hop I love you but... We need to talk

Every time I think music can't get any worse, I turn the radio on and hear shit like Racks, the 336 Boyz (boys? whatever), K-Stylis or that Tony Montana song. I can't lie sometimes it's catchy and I end up listening to the whole song or even singing along, but only when I'm by myself and never in front of anybody who I even remotely care about what they think of me. I've only used rappers because, that's my favorite genre to criticize because it's the genre I love the most and spent the most time with, we grew up together. BUT, please believe all other popular genre's have successful sucky leading artist I'm looking at you kesha, beiber, ciara, and kreayshawn. For the majority of the post I will stick to hip hop because it's the one I'm the most disappointed in and also it seems to have the most consistency of sucky artist.

Now I know I did name two local acts, but hey if your from another city please by all means insert your shitty local artist on the radio, cuz' those muthafuckers are every where they're like annoying ass cock roaches with loud voices on. The sad part is that these guys who for the most part suck and somehow believe that their little radio success will lead them to overall success umm no, just stop seriously, you suck and most of us hate that your on our radio for 3minutes and 46 seconds or however the fuck long your shitty ass song is. I was going to quote some of the lyrics from these local guys, but then I thought na there's a bigger issue and, plus do I really need to waste my time on their lyrics? You know they suck I know they suck let's just move on.

Like I said in the opening, Hip Hop and I grew up together, I was born in '81 the music started in the early 80's depending on who you ask. So I, for the most part heard it all at some point in time during my life, I was very much influenced during hip hop's golden age during the 90's. I remember it being dominated by dancing ass MC Hammer, NWA bring in that west coast gangsta music that my friends and I weren't allowed to listen to. A Tribe Called Quest and De La Soul's back-packery introduction, Nice and Smooth and Jazzy Jeff and The Fresh Prince  more fun partying style music. I'm not forgetting the originators like KRS One, Big Daddy Kane, Rakim and the godfather of thug hip hop music Kool G Rap click the link or google him youngin's. I'm just speaking of the 90's where Hip Hop was mainstreamed and popularized to the point where I found out biggie died because this white girl I was messing with at the time called me at 10 in the a.m. crying about it. That's the golden age to me where not only was Hip Hop really becoming popular but the music making and skills of the artist were starting to mesh and fit together perfectly. Now the actual music making and production has far surpassed the actual skills of 95% of most rappers nowadays.

Who's the hottest rapper now? Lil Wayne? Nope he's singing now, Drake? He's always been a singer who can rap a little bit. Wiz? more of just a nigga who's high all the time who has a bunch of hippie's who listen to him 'cuz they're high too. J Cole *falls asleep snoring*zzzzzzz*wakes up abruptly* huh? oh yea my bad I fell asleep just thinking about a J Cole album sorry he's boring.(seriously who even says "who dat" anymore? shit is wack fuck outta here!) Wale? nope can't be he's doesn't move enough units same goes for Lupe (IMO is probably the best from a content standpoint of them all) I like B.O.B. but he's kinda stuck in between drake and Lupe category, singer good rapper nice content but doesn't move units like say a Wayne or have the features like a Rick Ross(did I really just type that? *pulls out a gun and kills self* ). Ahhh yes now on to the so called thug, dope boy category so there's Jeezy, Rick Ross, Gucci (GUCCI!!!!!) Ace Hood, wait what? They're not all the same guy who just changes his voice a little on each song?? really?? no way!! welp, huh...go figure, you learn something new everyday I guess. You get my point, those rappers are all the same they're hot for a few summers two at best then they flame out, Jeezy is going through it now, Ross your next I hope you've been saving your money brotha.

So that pretty much leaves us with just Kanye' (I don't count Jay Z because he came out in the 90's and is the undisputed heavy weight champ period) The sad part is Ye' started off as a producer the best part is that as an artist he's continued to grow and get better even though he's cheating a bit because he can make the best beats for his style, because he make's his own. I think as far as longevity, ability, skills to match the production, marketabilty and star quality it's Ye'. I say that to say that compare any Kanye' song to any of the top rappers of the 90's and it's no contest. Bigge? Nas? Eminem? Jay Z? Pac? Scarface? Big L? (google him) even Prodigy of Mobb Deep(shook ones verse is my trump card) Would he even be in the top 5 of Wu-Tang (meth, rae, ghost, gza, odb)? Na I don't see it, but today? 2011 he's easily one of the best every body's top 3 albums should include his from this year. Now don't tell Kanye that though I don't think his ego could handle it, but he's really not in the same class of those rappers it's like basketball after MJ retired we were stuck with Vince Carter, Tracy McGrady, and a bunch of high schoolers who should've taken more time to work on their game it just wasn't the same brand of basketball it just wasn't as good.

Now we're stuck with these Rapper-N-B dudes like Roscoe Dash, seriously Roscoe wtf!!! Are you a singer,rapper what? tell us what do you do besides hooks?? I need to know I'll be huddled in a corner holding myself and rocking back-n-forth mumbling rapper? singer? ,and periodically letting loose a manical laugh before I can figure it out. The music has been morphed, and blended so much that Big Sean (big? really nigga? gtfoh) and drake are arguing about who stole Ja Rule's style first. Come on fella's be for real nothing your doing is new or original, nothing! Then we got this racks shit (nope I'm not linking that crap), really you can't have a hot song if the first 3 times anyone hears it they have no idea what your saying? Have you seen this clown? If you can actually sing the chorus to me verbatim you'll win a cookie then a swift kick in the nuts or a punch in the tit (I'm an equal opportunist), for cheating 'cuz you looked that shit up!! No one knows what he's saying not even him 'cuz he's a ratard. Don't even get me started on Nikki Minaj, Waka (Voting Good!), Rocko, OJ da juiceman(who I'm pretty sure is a heroin addict). All terrible if you can be Parodied and the Parody is just as good as anything you make? Houston you have a fucking problem.

I say all this to say that I love hip hop music, I love it so much that I'll suffer through her tryst with every wanna be rapper, dope boy, gangsta, so called rapper singer or rap-n-b artist there is. I'll even listen to their music when it's on the radio or t.v. just because the beat is nice and the hook is catchy. Yes I will, I'll deal with the auto-tune era which for some reason refuses to die or go away. I understand auto-tune is the equivalent to HGH and steroids in sports, for rap-n-b artists, but we've had enough stop abusing us with your terrible singing thank you. I just need Hip Hop to occasionally drop a hot album every 6 months and when that happens I'll turn off the Kings of Leon, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Bloc Party and every other artist or group that actually tries to make good music, so I can listen to Watch the Throne, or whatever Wale and B.O.B calls their latest album. You know why because I'm loyal, and I truly love music, all music, good music and especially Hip Hop music.

Mars and Venus are too close

O.K. ladies I'm gonna give you a little insight in to how a man's brain works and fellas you'll appreciate me more once I break this shit all the way down. Some of you lesser men will hate me though but, hey such is life. Listen I think 1st and foremost we must agree with the premise that men and women are completely different and want completely different things. If we can't agree on that then just skip this blog post and catch the next one hopefully.

See ladies really most men want simple things like a good meal, a clean house, space when we're annoyed, someone to listen (just listen don't interrupt and start yammering about some dumb bitch at your job who pissed you off)  when we want to talk (seriously when you interrupt and talk about your problems that pisses us off), and of course that good sex, good sex is number one. Now here's something you may not know when your on one of your talking tangents about how you went to Walmart and the lady at Walmart was rude to you, or how you couldn't find the vitamin water for 30 minutes. We could honestly give a fuck less we only half listen and the only reason we do that is because we actually care about you and want you happy (or not to get mad start a fight and end our chances at sex later), but some of your mundane stories we have to listen to everyday are really boring. Yet we endure smile kiss you and make you feel like we care...sometimes. For that we only want you to leave us alone when the game is on or not talk during Tosh.0, or let us play the ps3 without you complaining.

Now I understand we are complete fuck ups in most relationships, and hey I'm not a woman so I don't really understand what most of you want (really I haven't a fucking clue). Truthfully that's not why I'm writing this, I'm writing this because honestly ladies you think you know but the truth is you have no idea(seriously I have no clue what you want just tell us shit!). I have had my fair share of relationships, some good, some bad, some fun almost everyone of them ended. I'm here to show you ladies where you miss the signs, so let me give you the signs. It's a lot of guys on the D.L and if you want my opinion I think about 50% of them dudes are just confused and frustrated with dealing with their woman the others well they're just flamingly gay and too scared to admit it (nut up bitches and just be gay really most people don't care).

Here are a few signs that your man is unhappy and you should start paying attention (just listen don't ask over & over & over & over again what's wrong). Your man only smiles when he's watching T.V, he doesn't come to bed until 3 to 4 hours after you do. When you talk his only response is "mhhmmm" really?" oh that's crazy". you guys have short very angry or hard sex better described as fucking (he's mumbling cuss words at you while he does it or he chokes you a little too hard). Finally he just walks around the house like a zombie or as if he's in a trance. These are just a few but they are good ones for you to look for and hopefully you'll start listening when he talks because let's keep it real we're not very smart when it comes to relationships ladies and our simplicity can be your salvation because men always tell you exactly what they want, unless their feminine or gay. In that case I can't help you because I was raised by a man and I only know how men work. We may not just come out and say "baby I love you but when I'm watching t.v. I want you to only talk during commercials or I really care about you but the dumb ass people at your job I could give 2 shits about". But it comes out in our conversation or actions you just got to pay attention every now and again. Don't take it that we don't care about you or we're rude because when your talking in the middle of one our favorite shows, that's us saying babe I love you but I'm watching this and your interrupting it.

The thing is most of you girls say how we don't listen we don't care blah blah blaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!! blaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!! Ok my bad but that shit is annoying see the thing is we listen, we listen all the fucking time about every little nagging thing that bothers you. Shit it's enough to make a man want to go deaf. The thing is that really ladies you don't listen. Maybe you think your listening and maybe your trying but your not hearing what we say. All your hearing is what is he saying that's relevant to me so I can steer this conversation back to be about me. Really that's not your fault, it's kind of our culture. Little girls are considered princesses, and thus allowed to be spoiled and self-centered. And hey let's be honest most females have way more to talk about than men, the issues comes in when we actually do have something to say and YOU still don't listen. that's not fair.



Most men are actually very much like K-9's we just like to have our head patted our belly's rubbed a good meal and to be allowed to hump when we can, and most of all to feel appreciated. Treat us that way ladies and we'll be loyal to you for the rest of our lives. We'll follow you around to any place you want whenever you want, whatever woman's store you want to go to, any silly ass friend's dinner or celebration you want us to go, we'll even play well with all of your friend's boyfriends or husbands. The problem comes when you ladies get into princess mode and you think I'm a princess all that matters is what I want and you better be glad you have me and put me on my pedestal. Hey that's  fine just learn to pet us every now and again, then there won't be so many of you ladies on twitter men bashing all the time. Then again what the fuck do I know this could only be my shit and I'm the only one that thinks this way...it's possible, and if that's the case then tell me to go fuck myself and go back to bashing all men.

Soapboxian

so·cial·ism

 

a theory or system of social organization  that advocates the vesting of the ownership and control of the means of production and distribution, of capital, land, etc., in the community as a whole

Thanks to conservatives and FOX news the term socialism has been demonized to the point where whoever utters it will be immediately looked upon as a treasonous bastard who's mouth and tongue should be melted with an iron poker shaped as the American eagle, because no good self-respecting American would ever believe in their government and that it could possibly do anything right or help them. See this is the land of the free and the home of the rich as fuck, and everybody else should be rich and if their not that's their own lazy asses fault and they should go fuck themselves instead of asking for a handout from my damn taxes. I don't know if you lazy fucks notice this but only the rich people make this world go round and only the rich people are hard working and they shouldn't have to pay for your social security, medicare, health insurance, welfare or even your socialist communist fricking unemployment insurance, because honestly who the fuck told you to work somewhere that will go out of business or that you could be fired (smh you dumbass you should have been a hedge fund guy or bank CEO, cuz their fucking awesome). 

I'm not saying I'm a socialist because I'm not, but I do think some of the concepts fit very well within our society. Here's the deal no one in this country makes money on their own, where they should not have to pay their fair share, and if you make a lot of money it's made off of the backs of a lot of people. While in the case of the wall street guys they make money by lying, cheating, and stealing other people's hard earned money (I know I'm explaining this in an overly simplistic way). The point being is that someone who makes a lot of money off of simply moving other people's money around is not someone who creates jobs nor do they deserve major tax breaks. The way this society works is when you as a person accumulate wealth, you then have a responsibility to help the have nots. Simple things like health care, necessary health care like physicals, and rehab when you break or tear something, and education those type of things will help make us a better society as a whole and if you make more than a billion dollars in a year 40 to 50% income tax on that money is not unreasonable. 

You know why I say that, because there is not one reasonable argument that can explain why one human being doing one job is worth 1 billion dollars in one year. Honestly unless your curing AIDS, world hunger, or ending all wars and conflicts at the same time you have no legitimate argument. Now that's where socialism comes in because the main concept is for the most part very simple you live in a society you benefit by being in the society and you essentially agree to the terms that because you have received benefits i.e. a lucrative pay, safe streets, fire department, clean food & water. For those things the group (government) decides and accepts part of your exorbitant pay and re-apply's that back into the society and group to continue to improve the community. I'm not saying the government should control private businesses, honestly I don't think the government should have anything to do with businesses at all as far as creation and product design goes. BUT I do think the government and contrary to popular belief have for the most part done a very good job at protecting and taking care of most people in our society. 

So my solution is simple the government does what it's designed for and does best and business does what it does best. Government for the people, business for the money. Business you make as much money as you can so that the Government can tax you properly and make policy which benefits the people and not the businesses. Negative tax rates(when a company pays no taxes and the IRS gives them a refund still) for our most profitable companies, 15% tax rates (capital gains) for our most successful people on money that they essentially didn't work to earn is not benefiting the group. Don't believe me? Just look at the state of our nation and economy, we've tried it been there done that. OK rich people you've got enough 1% of the nation owns 34% of the wealth in America while the bottom 90% owns 27% of the wealth in our country.

More Bottom Left to Go

Hopefully this will be the first and only blog post of mine where I will actually write something very personal about me, but there are some things I need to get off of my chest. So like my brother from another always says it's time for a really honest moment, so please forgive any grammatical errors harsh words or dark tone of this entry, but bear with me just this one time.....but really a nigga is feeling broken right now (yea I said nigga fuck it sue me *shrugs*)

Every time I feel like I hit the bottom, and that I'm gonna bounce back something happens that makes me realize that I'm not even close to bottom yet. I'm having one of those moments now I feel like I have hit bottom and I'm going to bounce back. Or maybe not, maybe there is still room for me to fall. I remember being cocky and arrogant when I was younger, always believing that no matter what happens I'll always figure out a way to be on top and get what I want. Boy has that changed, I used to think I was the shit I was a catch and anybody that had me was lucky to have me. I was young intelligent, I had a degree my own crib a job my own car, I wasn't rich by any means but I had enough money. I didn't have any kids, I was handsome I had style, was well kept always a fresh haircut nice clothes. I just knew I was the shit, not anymore though. A series of bad decisions followed by bad luck a nice good swift life kick in the balls cleared all that out of me. Brought my cocky arrogant ass right back down to earth.

Now I barely got a pot to piss in, and I honestly ask myself why the fuck would anybody want me. What the fuck do I have to offer anybody? I've got good friends people who I believe genuinely love me but I have no fucking clue why they do. I hope they know that I would give them the shirt off my back if they ever needed it,and they wouldn't even have to ask for it, unfortunately though I don't have a shirt to give them. My bad decisions have shattered my confidence in myself to the point where I question every choice I make. I wince and just wait for the kidney shot, like a battered dog anytime some one tries to pet me. Occasionally I snap at a hand that tries to help me, and the ones that I do allow to help I have no idea or reasonable means to at the very least pay back the help. I'm angry and grumpy most days, the others I'm just sad and slightly depressed. I get so lost in my thoughts that sometimes I wonder where the last hour went. I get lost in music in my ipod sometimes that I completely zone out to where it's almost like I'm in a dream like state. It's weird and scary.

I'm always thinking the worst of myself and I expect everyone else to think the same. I don't understand how any woman could possibly be happy with a miserable prick like myself, and I never blame them when they are unhappy or even expect them to be. My other brother told me the other day "man fuck that other bullshit, you got to fix yourself and that should be your number one goal". Yea.....is all I thought, but I don't know how I really don't see an out or a fix. I don't want to fight or defend myself half of the time I'm too drained to fight with anybody else because I spend so much time beating myself up. I don't know if anybody can relate I'm sure there are a few who can, but it sure feels like it's just me dealing with these things. Truthfully though I like it that way.

I like it that way because despite it all I always have a small glimmer of hope that I'll get it right. That I'll be more successful than as big of a failure as I am now. (does that even make sense? fuck it, it makes sense to me) I want it that way because I know it will feel better when i stand up and say yea I was fucked up but you know what I went through that it made me tough and I beat it, I'm strong. Really that one thought is the only thought that keeps me from doing something really dumb, crazy, or selfish. So there are times when I like being by myself or left alone, don't take it personal. It's not anything against you I'm not being distant I'm just usually lost in my thoughts digging at the ground trying to figure out if there is more bottom left to go or if I can stand up and make my climb back up the mountain. Or I'm just beating myself up and I don't want you to see my weakness, sorry just give me my time and space know I love you and I'll shake myself out of it. Because my pops raised me strong, he raised me tough , he did it by himself and he raised me fucking right. And I'll be damned if I let him down or make a fool out of him, or let anyone else for that matter.

'Cuz we'd be so free/ happy alone/ sharing a smile/so far from home/and we would laugh/laugh til we cried/making up songs/and making me lie....happy alone

Fantasy T.V.

So I'm just flipping through the channels the other day and I happen across a show on bravo (BRAVO!!! I say hell no!!) I think it's called million dollar decorators or something like that. Anyway the premise is a camera crew follows Gay men and Bitchy white women who are interior decorators for insanely rich white people. They spend money on 50,000 dollar rugs and 100,000 dollar beds for 20 million dollar homes and guest houses, that no one lives in for 9 months out of the year. The whole time I'm watching these glorified shoppers for rich people who are too lazy to shop for themselves, my facial expressions move from abject shock and repulsion to the "c'mon son" face(if you click on "c'mon son" there is a video there). I just can't believe this is considered legitimate entertainment.

Then I'm watching the commercials and it's advertisement for the "Real Housewives of who gives a fuck" some fake ass American idol type show more fashion shows and more shows about rich people. Then I'm looking at all the other Reality shows coming on T.V. like the Kardashians and all their ridiculous shows of people who seem to have no real value to the world and yet are insanely rich. Then there's the basketball wives who can you believe it are women who are NOT married to basketball players (I was flabbergasted when I found this out I know you were too) talk about false advertisement, some of these women have never been married to a basketball player (I'm looking at you Royce and your naps). Now don't get me wrong I don't have a problem with all the shows just the ones that's sole purpose it seems is to glorify decadence.

Listen I don't know if you guys are noticing or not but, America is fucked up, life is hard for a lot of people, and the idea that a show about buying furniture for a 20 million dollar house that the person will only stay in for 1 month out the year is good reality TV, really there is only one response to that.(a video there too)

Let me bore you with a few facts 1.4 million people have been unemployed for 99 weeks or longer, as of October 2010 4.04 million people are on emergency benefits, CEO's of the largest American companies make 531 times more than the average worker(for every dollar you make they make 531 of them, sounds like a good deal right?). Finally 16.6% eligible workers are either unemployed or underemployed (not working 40 hrs/wk).  I haven't even touched the housing situation, but you are all smart people and I know you see my point.

I know the argument is people just like to get away from their problems blah blah blah, great, sweet, go to the movies where the shit is fictional not passed off as real life. But watching a bunch of lazy ass rich women and their half assed problems about throwing parties and arguing with each other over who said who's wig was real or what the fuck ever can't be considered good T.V or even entertainment. I do understand plenty of people watch that crap and they enjoy it but really??!! seriously dog??!!! REAAALLLY!!?? Most of the shows are about as real as nikki minaj's butt (or her fucking hair for that matter) I know you guys love watching these shows for the drama , and you barely think about them. It's kind of like old people's legs you know they have them you never think about them, then when you see them your still grossed out by them and hypnotized by the veiney trails and lost in the forest of wrinkling skin and the next thing you know you've been staring at those gross flabby things for 15 minutes and didn't even realize it.

It's the same way with these ridiculous shows you get sucked in by the stupidity of their silly ass argument and then your wondering if those boobs are real or how much did it cost to get her lips done, or even wow this guy is really gay and he just spent 150,000 dollars on a table that maybe 15 people will see and no one will use. Then the commercial break and you come out of the fog of ridiculousness, and your thinking WTF have I been doing with my life right now, then before you know it the show is back on, and your sucked right back in niiiiccceee,  your watching "mob princesses" give up all the mob business and fight over who's man is a bigger asshole. Your watching 20 somethings with fake fashion jobs break up with fake boyfriends because they fucked their fake best friends, or your watching another super gay guy with really nice clothes (seriously is it like a law that gay people have great style and really nice jeans?) argue with an uber rich person about the type of sink in their 6th bathroom that no one will ever use.

Finally before you know it you've wasted 45 minutes of your life time that you could have been doing anything, you planned on using that time to clean your kitchen, or going to get some food, but you missed out and now you have to rush to get ready for your 2nd job just so you can pay your car note or rent. The really sad part is I'm just barely scratching the surface of the ridiculous "reality TV" shows there's about 30 of them on E. I just don't have the time, space, or energy to speak on them all. 

While your watching these fake lives of real people, who in all honesty live much better than you simply because their parents, husbands or the TV show itself gave them money. The real reality is happening all around you and it's not nearly as glamorous or pretty and, really that's OK that it's not.  All I'm saying is don't get lost in the fantasy of reality T.V.